Childhood poor friend

Few things on my mind.

·         I don’t have any materialistic desires. I don’t need a great car, I don’t want a new bike, I don’t want an expensive watch. Whats wrong with me? Or is it too good. Am I deep into solving my personal problems? Sometimes. And these are the times I’m heavily stressed and can’t enjoy the present moment.

Is it always important to rhyme?

I ask myself;

how can someone ask himself?

are there multiple souls inside;

But what is soul?

it’s just a house of beliefs;

were we born with those beliefs?

whom am i asking now,

wow.. who is it thats inside me,

·          

I’m so stuck up with my problems. Remember Anjaiah?

U let him lead his bad life... didn’t help even a little. He came to my house repeatedly, just to talk or maybe expecting something. Each time I just spoke a little and sent him away.

What more help could I do?

I saw a clerk opening being posted on Npcil site. Its for SC. Why not inform him i thought. Did i help atleast one guy in life ? Maybe if he had known little English and passed 10^th I could have helped him.

Anjaiah is one such example. He was a close friend, I had played with him, he taught me many things. He used to sit in the corner in our hall and watch tv. I can never forget the small car his brother made with just an aluminium wire. Those were their glorious days, mine too i guess. There father was our watchman. Later he left our apartments, and joined somewhere else. But his children kept coming to meet us. Later his father left all. They depended on their mother’s n brother’s income.

I remember visiting their house. Small and smells something, can’t say bad but not good too, definitely food, old food. All was under one roof, kitchen ,hall , bedroom. Anjaiah liked music. Like almost every telugu guy, he was a pavan kalyan fan. He had a tape recorder. And many many cassettes. He used to buy latest film songs of his hero’s new films. But i was wondering why he was wasting money on cassettes? And i said u could find them on internet for free , come home one day I record all n give u.

Infront of his house, rather a small room, there was a huge farm. I thought it was their’s, but now I know, its not, they wouldn’t be so poor if it were. Green farm. He caught dragon flies, showed me a variety of dragon flies – the fat helicopter types to the sleek anorexic types (they looked just like a small twig with wings)

He has some health problem too.. Its like he gets hiccups every 2-5 mins. There’s some kind of jerk in his whole body. Why didn’t i ever google what it was? Why ? He has teeth stained with brown colour.