I caught myself drifting away into other thoughts rather than concentrating on the task at hand.. Then I questioned myself, what ? who caught whom ?
I caught myself ? doesn't make sense..
Its actually one desire catching another desire in the mind.
Then I started analyzing why and how I drifted off ..
The task at hand was not so important as the old important ingrained task of analyzing and understanding my mind or myself. Thus I seemed to be a little happy somewhere deep inside to have caught the drift off and seemed quite happy to analyze it not thinking much about the present task at hand.
We have many layers of desires or necessities , inline with which are our actions. While doing a certain action, a "just a little deeper" dominant desire/necessity thought arises and grabs the attention of consciousness. As this is happening, I'm reminded by some senses still involved in the old action to come back to present task.
Thus one thought catches the other. And when this sudden shifts from one thought to other, rather than seamless shifting occurs, another thought arises which says "Hey wait! what just happened? What was that jerky thought process ? How did it happen? "
This analysis is the fresh thought that I'm drifting into knowing very well that there's a task at hand. But this gains more importance, as knowledge of working of my mind is more important to me than some menial task.
So one of my deep desire/necessity seems to lie in understanding how my mind works.
When the consciousness is working/acting on the deepest layer of thought, it doesn't drift off as there are no more layers below it, No thought disturbs it. But, is analyzing or understanding myself/mind the deepest thought layer of me ? I don't think so. Peeling thought layers, one after the other I must go deeper to understand the deepest desire/necessity thought.
But why to even understand it? Lets work with whatever arises in the mind till it passes away and then hold onto another thought till it passes away, lets jump randomly ? Naah I'll stick to peeling layers, seems like a organized systematic logical thing to do but I have no clue whats under the last layer.
I caught myself ? doesn't make sense..
Its actually one desire catching another desire in the mind.
Then I started analyzing why and how I drifted off ..
The task at hand was not so important as the old important ingrained task of analyzing and understanding my mind or myself. Thus I seemed to be a little happy somewhere deep inside to have caught the drift off and seemed quite happy to analyze it not thinking much about the present task at hand.
We have many layers of desires or necessities , inline with which are our actions. While doing a certain action, a "just a little deeper" dominant desire/necessity thought arises and grabs the attention of consciousness. As this is happening, I'm reminded by some senses still involved in the old action to come back to present task.
Thus one thought catches the other. And when this sudden shifts from one thought to other, rather than seamless shifting occurs, another thought arises which says "Hey wait! what just happened? What was that jerky thought process ? How did it happen? "
This analysis is the fresh thought that I'm drifting into knowing very well that there's a task at hand. But this gains more importance, as knowledge of working of my mind is more important to me than some menial task.
So one of my deep desire/necessity seems to lie in understanding how my mind works.
When the consciousness is working/acting on the deepest layer of thought, it doesn't drift off as there are no more layers below it, No thought disturbs it. But, is analyzing or understanding myself/mind the deepest thought layer of me ? I don't think so. Peeling thought layers, one after the other I must go deeper to understand the deepest desire/necessity thought.
But why to even understand it? Lets work with whatever arises in the mind till it passes away and then hold onto another thought till it passes away, lets jump randomly ? Naah I'll stick to peeling layers, seems like a organized systematic logical thing to do but I have no clue whats under the last layer.
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