Learning from Colleagues at work

Today was a 2nd Technical meeting.

In these meetings people discuss various issues.
We get an overall picture of the work. Who assigns what ? who handles what ? etc.

Dedicated employees like Santosh, Rajesh, Jitesh and ofcourse Reddy sir - do a lot of work i.e through checking of reports - that is their work.

They know the big picture. They understand Visually ,they know the consequences, etc.. They worked and its inspiring to see them discuss various issues in these meetings.

Here is a summary of todays discussion :

TAM, Nozzles, supports, Loads, Insulation thickness, P&ID's, Valves, Weight of System, Flanges, Seismic Categories, FAC -Flow assisted corrosion, Sp gr of piping fluid, etc..

They worked as if it was some physics problem I used to work on in my intermediate.
Such interest and Enthusiasm is not in me. I am inspired and enthusiastic now after this meeting, but it fades away soon.

Ethically, I should be doing office work with such enthusiasm and then later do my personal work and maintain a fine balance in both the worlds.

Or should I quit ? Quit to serve other important purposes ?
No doubt this work can be made interesting as these people have developed interests in it.
But does it matter ? This detailed checking/reviewing of reports ?

Yes it helps prevent few accidents and mis-happenings, which could save lives.

What about the work I have passion to do ? But do I have the same passion as these guys ? Do I do the work with same enthusiasm ?
No.
I must learn and Remind myself of such enthusiasm that I once had in intermediate.

What I see is - Just another piping. Aah TAM values 1-4 mm what does it matter.
Piping will qualify. Also its not a critical piping.. Stresses are fine. Inputs look okay. etc..

They see it as - Tam 2 mm .. how ? Oh radial expansion.. Oo wat abt axial expansion?
Oh nozzle might fail.. Add all loads n check.. Oh its failing..
Whats this, this equipment is sliding. Oo here's an Orifice, its not a pipe, so consider it rigid, comment on it.

So they are interested in it ! I am not.
Interest can be developed in any field. And this is a skill certain people have.

Santosh cud have been sluggish on being transferred from an award winning job to Our department where people don't work on critcal award winning systems. But NO, He came to change our dept. He saw oppurtunities - called a group meeting to have regular discussions, interactions, study material sharing, etc.. . He interacts and works for collective development of all. He visualizes stuff, he simplifies complex structures as Simple spring mass systems in his mind and analyzes stuff, etc..

So what are the mistakes I am making ?

Firstly, I do not work well or I am disinterested as I have interests in other fields. WRONG. - Work well. With interest. In the working hours. And pursue other interests after working hours or after the work is done. Work should get first priority in Office, along with tremendous developed interest. With interest comes Understanding , Visualization, Satisfaction. Your brain stays young and active.

Secondly, I am dis-organized. I make notes in random places and forget them.
Rajesh and Santosh sir are exemplary organized persons. Maintaining a file always.
Dis-Organized living gives rise to laziness & stress and vice versa. LINKED!
Eliminate Both to end the CYCLE.

Thirdly, Patience. Work and work well. Do not get angry for not getting fruits. Do not be upset because of it. Do not care about it. Who can disturb you if you take joy in your work. Fruits are an added bonus and never basic neccessity.

I shall learn to become a better person. If I Quit, I shall not because of frustration from the work , but should quit because I am more interested in other work which is my passion.
Every work can be done in a better way. If everyone does it in such a way there would not be any problems in the world - Karma Yoga.

High Brain activity

Everyone wants to escape the routine to do what they wish.

But its a risk - You don't get paid. Society mocks you. You have to answer lot of people. etc

Send us details of what you wish to do ? How do you want to add value ?
We'll select 50 such people and run a startup reality show.

They'll build whatever they wish to. Some Online, some real projects.. These will be just like SUP chile Entrepreneur stuff.. with demo day, with presentations, pizza parties, etc..

These people will try to change the world. You see them how and why they do it. This gives wide publicity to their products on TV and boosts the change.

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My arguments.

I don't accept defeat easily. I tend to go sometimes towards the extreme of my point and this is the weakness that gets exposed.

Truth is between these extremes and I shall argue for the truth.

I have analogies in my mind - these are design analogies. Branches, timelines, colurful explosions, Weighing Mechanism, pillar supported structures, etc to explain concepts.

(So here lies the solution. Choose the Model of Argument. Argue to prove a point or oppose by showing how the model collapses.) I think this is a great way to understand and explain things.

Ex: Fighting from a Weakest point. Say a bridge exists and its extremes have weak supports. If you fight and lose at extremes , it doesn't matter much , because the defeat doesn't prove that you are wrong, it could be the wobbly supports that threw you out of balance.

Etc etc analogies and models of arguements.

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Few basic things I need to fix:

Breathing.

Less talking and more meditating.
Less accusations/arguments and more work, any work, menial work.

More deep thinking along with reading.
More relaxed feeling in arguments.

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Don't get lost !

People get lost arguing . They go from one topic to another with so much ease but forget the central theme of the conversation.
You may argue this type of living is better than worrying abt the theme. Like artists, who have a flow, keep flowing and creating wonderful spectacular art..
But I am worried about people who get lost with less brain activity.

In a huge tree , artists get lost in the branches , among the flowers as they noursih the tree from the root (brain) .. Their tree is healthier and beautiful.
Some people get lost, among dried branches, finding an occasional leaf, that will eventually shed, searching for the next fruit while the thirsty root craves for nourishment.

There are people who are on whichever branch of the tree remember where the root is and give importance to it.

My mind is bustling with activity today. In the morning I had great visuals running in my mind for some amazing songs that I heard - sun raha hai na tu, etc..
The visuals were filled with power, faith in oneself and what he can do with it - I had the dragonBallZ type visual exuberating power and awe.

With the music of Rehman song running in my mind - the Arabic type one - Ree da ha - coke studio song.. I was charged up once again in the noon.
I was in great form while playing TT.. Hitting with confidence. I produced some amazing shots.

The energy of Bl3nd is me. that energy bubbling in my mind but controlled with a calm composure is the ideal. The yogi with immense power. With zero pride. With faith that everybody has it. With love for everyone.
Energy that does not subside.. constantly working .. complex thoughts.. designs.. manifesting the grandeur of nature in his own mind..
Such beautiful nature is in Me .. in all..

But why havent I felt this while I was on a routine of meditation.
I had fallen into the grove of comfortness.. Come out, realise the energy .
Tamas - Rajas -Sattvika.
Get the Rajas first - that Energy which says I'll drink the ocean, crumble the mountains.. Then counter with sattvika.. turn it into Bliss.

Lust

I had made a strong decision not to fall for lustful cravings, till the end of this year.. It has been close to 4 months now and I failed yesterday night & just few mins ago, again.

When I chat, I lie to get what I want, i kind of cheat by praising, I behave like a brute sometimes by behaving dominant. When its over, Im back to reality.. reality of honesty, logic and humanity.

We are forever bombarded with sexual content and thoughts from external world. It takes a lot of mental strength to fight it or just let them go without concern.. This war needs a "Peaceful Warrior"to fight it.

Observing my behavior under lust's influence, I am convinced that It is a major  cause for crimes, lies and violence.

It suppresses logic - No amount of logic can convince a brute. No logic works on a lustful person.

There are many people who strongly argue that -  when raped, its not the fault of the woman wearing revealing clothing. Very logical and true.
But its also true that there are many many weak minds and frustrated men on this planet, a little prod to their senses is enough to make them go crazy with lustful feelings and visuals in their minds.
Such people plan cunningly, they talk sweetly, if its not happening they use violence, they'll do heinous stuff under this hormone's influence. But they may not be such a cruel person in reality when they are normal.

The solution doesn't lie in roaming around naked and shouting Its not a woman's fault - Cuz logic's magic has little effect on this stuff. Not none, but little.
The planes of argument are different.
We need to find a solution on the emotional plane. Solution lies in recognizing/reanalyzing your behavior or understanding your emotions and others, after your down from the lust hormone rush.

Heres a good post about such a realization :
http://www.interactivetheatre.org/resc/jackm.html